Yesterday was a very busy day for us, lots of things happened. Yesterday was the day I started hating myself. I was so insensitive and so stupid. I made a very huge mistake. I never wanted to hurt anyone but I didn't come to my senses. I promised to myself that I would not let my temper cloud my judgment but I still broke my promise.

It was around 11:00 a.m. when we we're about to go to classrooms to classrooms to do a survey about the music that's going to be played in our Promenade. Most of my classmates wanted to come so they just went along with us. We didn't expect that we're going to be that many. Then, it started. I myself didn't know what happened. Somehow we just got annoyed. I didn't want to offend anyone so I just tried to ignore them. But things were getting out of hand. The situation got worse, my patience was running out. Then we asked Bro to talk to them, without even thinking if this could hurt them or not. See how insensitive I am? Then when Bro was done talking to them. Something came to my head, what if they get offended? It was just that moment that I realized what the others might have felt. Guilt was starting to bring me down. Then by lunch time I found out that some felt bad because of us pushing them away. I hated myself that time. I was so angry at myself that I just want to hurt myself. Then, I just couldn't control it anymore, I started punching the bulletin board. I don't know if anyone saw me.(I wish no one did.) Then we had to go out because of the PSD Idol activity that was going to be held that afternoon. I sat beside Lalaine because I wanted to apologize to her. I kept on asking her if they were really offended. I wanted to know but she kept on denying it. Still I asked her until she told me everything. Then I hugged her while saying sorry. Tears just started to flow that time because I was really angry at myself. I kept on telling her how sorry I am and I knew how insensitive I got. Then she insisted it was okay. But even if she said it was okay. That guilt, I can't help it. Then the song "The Prayer" was played for the prayer. It was the perfect time to say sorry to God. I told Him how sorry I was and I hope that the others will forgive us. Then tears just started falling again. After that I felt a lot better. But still, I haven't said sorry to everyone.

I know we have offended you and I hope that you guys know how truly sorry I am. I'm so sorry I didn't even consider your feelings. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry..... (